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LOVE YOU November 29, 2016
Photo credit to Laleh
Laleh's Kristaller Tour, Sweden 2016
The Day When I Met LALEH
The Day When I Met LALEH
As I have written a long story about seeing Laleh concert and meeting up
with her after that in Thai version here, I decided to write it in English too,
for some reasons...
On the 29th of October,
I was in Västerås, a small city in Sweden that I've never been before
but I booked a trains, place to stay and preparing to be here for 3 days,
just because of her concert, Laleh
I've been listening to her since Spring, it wasn't such a long time
but I loved her since I listened to her song First day of Spring,
Vårens Första Dag, it was also on the first day of spring
that I was really really serious becoming her fan.. she's so amazing
And then when I heard that she's having a new album coming out soon
and also gonna have a tour concert as well, I didn't hesitate to come to Sweden
again, even it takes a lot of money and time to come, I'd go to see her
at least once in my life time.. I know it's gonna worth it.
And yes, then it happened, I bought ticket- planes, trains, hotels, and
a concert ticket, all ready and here I come,
I choose Västerås instead of Stockholm because of the timing,
the dates 29th of October was perfect for my time in Sweden
and it doesn't matter how far the city is, I can take a train anywhere
just to see some amazing thing like her concert.
And yes, Västerås was a great choice I made
It was a great day when the day came, I was very excited,
I met some new friends who took me to amazing places around the city,
it looked boring at the first day I arrived but it got so much better when
I made some friends :) But I couldn't eat anything at all because I was
very excited to see Laleh, I don't even know why. But I enjoyed the day so much
Then I went home around 3:30 pm to prepare some things,
and it took me a while to finished it, then I got more excited around 5:30 pm
then I left home... the concert will start at 7:30, I arrived at the arena around 6
and I thought I was so early, so crazy and I just waited there, wait and wait
7:00 the doors open, me and people moved into the arena and I saw
the shop where all Laleh's CDs were selling there, tshirts, vinyls, bags
and other cool stuff, I went straight and told the girl "I want all CDs, please"
she was a bit surprised and said "sure but the pink one are sold out already"
"it's fine, I'll just have all left" The pink one is the latest one,
the Kristaller (Crystals) album, the one I wanted the most
but it was ok because I could find it anywhere else, maybe in Stockholm later
so then I got all CDs, from the first to the latest they have
I felt great and then I bought 2 beers and get ready
(sorry for my grammar, it's not very good here lol)
ABB Arena in Västerås
Then I go to my seat, it was 8th row, I thought it wasn't so bad but it wasn't
so good if you really love Laleh and wanted to see the best view of her concert.
Next time I swear I won't wait too long and will try to get at least the 3 or 4th row
or if it's best I'd go for the first row, yes I'm crazy but I think it will be better
7:30 pm concert starts, it's so amazing to see all her orchestra band and everything
is so pink, just like the concept of her Kristaller album. The orchestra starts first
and then Laleh came out with her perfect voice and wonderful clothes,
"Aldrig Bli Som Förr" was the first song she started with
and it was so so so cool, I felt like I almost cry when I first saw her!
it was Laleh! LALEH the one I was so crazy about and been
listening to her songs a lot! WOW! it was just like a half dreams...
Aldrig Bli Som Förr
Laleh from the screen
I don't remember how long the concert was but I felt like it was 2 hours or so.
It was amazing and I was very very happy, overwhelming, I don't really know how
can I explain here, everything was too good to write down here and
no words can describe how wonderful it was. Laleh is very talented
person and so magical, she sings so well and all her songs are so
meaningful and unique, the songs I felt so much for was "En Stund På Jorden"
it touches my heart so much even I don't really know Swedish
or even I knew the translation, I know it would be more more
beautiful if I could understand them in Swedish, not from the translations,
but I mean, they're wonderful, so so much.. Laleh
But there were some things that bothered me so much that most people
who were sitting around me weren't singing, I didn't know if they don't
know the lyrics or they are not really into the concert, most of them
are like mid-age people but I didn't know why didn't they sing and dance,
I was alone so I didn't know how to act or didn't dare to stand up
and dance alone, all people around me was like a statue,
but I'm sure they liked the concert.. because it was so great
But you know, even I'm from Thailand and I don't really speak Swedish,
I CAN SING ALL HER SONGS even in Swedish!!!
I really really enjoyed the concert, I was so so happy to be there,
to sing all her songs that she was singing and dancing in front of me
and other people. It was magical, dreamy and also very real..
The last song, the best one,
"Bara Få Va Mig Själv"
Thank you for being yourself, Laleh!
After the concert, there were some people waiting for Laleh, they wanted
her to sign the posters or some of them waited to take a picture with her
but unfortunately the staff told me and everybody that she will not come out again
but I felt like, hell no, I came across the oceans for 8,000 miles
and I got something for her, I at least have to give it to her,
or maybe ask someone to take it to her..
then someone told me to talk to Adam, the guitarist
who were very very nice to me, I gave the book I made for her to him
and then he gave it to Gustaf, one important man in the band too.
Then Gustaf came to talk to me and I asked him if I could see Laleh
He said he's not sure, but will check for me
and blinked, he got the book I gave,
then I waited...
One amazing book I did for Laleh
Then I waited, 10 minutes, 20 and maybe 30, it wasn't too long but all people
are gone and I felt like I didn't know what to do, a bit awkward
to stand there alone with no one by my side and other people
around there were the staff who were working hard but they didn't
pay attention to me, that was better. And then I thought maybe
I should just give up and go home, it was all perfect that I made
myself to see Laleh concert, it was enough and was the best so far..
But then some thoughts came, they said :
No, are you gonna go back to Thailand without seeing her?
Hell, then what can I do?
Damn... I waited, yes, I did
and.. and finally, I saw Laleh walked out from the door,
the ones I thought she was going to walk out any time,
I called her "LALEH!" then she saw me, smiled and came
she gave me a big hug, the first hug, first met, everything was so perfect
and I felt like it was like a dreams! too good to be true,
Laleh was standing next to me, in front of me,
and was talking to me...
Can I take a picture with you?
she took of her hat and said we look the same,
I asked Gustaf, the amazing man to take a photo for me,
he took a lot and they're all perfect!
Laleh was so so so nice to me, I knew that,
she asked "Did you like the concert?"
YES I liked it, I loved it, Laleh, but I told her I didn't know what to say
though I wanted to talk to her so bad, she was smiling
and asked "What songs you like?"
Oh, there were a little times and I was out of my mind so I only
said I liked "Some Die Young" and "Bara Få Va Mig Själv"
But I wish she knew I liked all songs, I wish I could tell her again
then she asked if I'm cold, yes it was cold, my feet were very very cold.
Gustaf told me that it's a hockey stadium, there're an ice below (or something)
and yes it was cold! very very cold,
then Laleh asked if I want water, I didn't know, I was starstruck
but she grabbed one bottle of water and gave it to me,
Thank you, I said. How can she be so nice like this? I love her so
Then we were walking out from the arena, we had to say good bye at last
because she was going back to the hotel (I guess)
Gustaf said something nice to me and Laleh gave me a bigger hug,
I didn't know how but I said "I love you"
without knowing that I was gonna say something like that
but of course, Laleh replied with "I love you too" to me,
we said goodbye and I really wish it's not the last time,
I know I'm going to see this amazing woman again one day,
some day, somewhere, but probably here, in Sweden..
Laleh, I wish you know how amazing you are,
maybe you already knew it but I just want to remind you again,
and all the things I wrote in the book, all pictures I drew there
are to remind you again and again and I hope you love them too..
My Kristaller for Laleh
Everything was so magical,
I wish I could remember it for a long long time,
And I will tell her stories to the children, if I have some...
ja, jag var där
hur underbart var det
My artwork inspired from her in a concert
Some people are like stars,
They're always shining...
They're always shining...
Alla Vill Till Himmelen... MEN INGEN VILL DÖ (Everybody wants to go to heaven, but no one wants to... die)rock 'n' lovin November 21, 2016
Photo shot from the way to Freetown Christiania
So as our lives are changing every single day and it's never going to be the same again
I've decided to write down things I have done recently here.
Even if it will be a bit too personal to put it on here, but who cares anyway?
I have just recovered from the worst sickness I ever had in my life, a dengue fever.
I stayed 6 days in a hospital, no showers, no washing hair, no tv, no dogs,
no animals, no work and no entertainment at all. Some of my good friends
and colleagues came visited me and I was so so happy to see them,
glad I was, and always happy and that I have the best family who are
always by my side, especially my mom, she's the best and everyone was
just so cool to me.
I also lost so much weight, I'm glad and wish I'd never gain much after this.
Today was the first day I came back to work and almost all colleagues
who saw me they said "WOW, you've lost so much weight!" I was glad,
and also puzzling because I was wearing all black dress that always
makes me look more thin, so, idk. But I indeed lost some weight.
Other news is I went to a funeral again today. Not the same person,
but this year is kind of sad year that so many of my friend's families
has passed. Maybe it's a period of time, maybe it's "the fall" if you know
what I mean. One conversation I had with my friend's aunt about her
mother's death is "she didn't want to go.. but.." then it made me very sad,
because I've just realized again that NOBODY IS READY TO GO,
NOBODY IS READY TO DIE you know, NO ONE. it's just sad that
sometimes you can't choose, even if you want to live more..
This made me think of Laleh's songs, Some Die Young,
En Stund Pa Jorden, and Varens Forsta Dag,
always sings about death, life and the truth... I don't know
what to think about when I go to funeral, all is empty, and all is full...
but all gone to somewhere new anyway
Another crazy news is I am thinking about going to Sweden again
next Summer, the reason is because Laleh has announced on her pages
that she's throwing a tour concert in Summer and it's my challenge to be in
a damn front row (or at least not as far as the 8th row that I was in the
Kristaller concert in Vasteras) so, going to Sweden or not, I'm going to buy
a damn concert ticket anyway (though that means a commitment, that I will
have to go after that because I couldn't stand losing or selling ticket out
to somewhere else anyway) It's so crazy that someone would travel far
like 8,000 miles just to see one person, isn't it crazy?
but if it makes you happy why not doing it? (if you have money ofc)
I even questioned myself do I love Laleh that much?
do I love her like I said to her in Vasteras?
but why questioning when she is one of my inspirations,
one of those people who gave me much of an idea to create new things,
if it makes you move so it means something to you..
I am so tired, I will think more of what to write here,
I don't want it to be like a dear diary like this every posts...
Nothing is more important than to be yourself,
God natt my love...
It's been a while that I haven't written so much here.
The truth is I was busy, I was somewhere else, and I have got another places to write on.
I have other webblog and some articles on another sites that they're all in Thai.
I've met a lot of people who doesn't know Thai and they are interested in my
writing and stories, so I think maybe it's time to make this blog new again.
But I will change a lot of it, some day soon.. you'll see
And other news is I just got back from my loving country, Sweden
(can I even call it mine when I wasn't born there?) it was my second time
and another best times there. I went back to meet someone who I wanted to see
so so so bad, I went back after a year, we talked, we had a great time, another one
and I was so happy seeing her happy with her life.
I also met so many new friends, they are Swedish, Canadian, Pakistani,
Mexican, Danish, Colombian and etc etc... It's always great to meet new people
and get to know them, it's also sad I had only 10 days and it was a little too short
but I was glad I've done all things I wanted to.
I also went to see LALEH concert in Vasteras, one of the cities in Sweden.
I got to see her after that, we hugged, talked, she was so so so nice, her concert
was pure magical, this woman is magic, unique and so so so down to earth,
I just love her, Laleh...
I also met one Swedish girl but it was bad that we couldn't be friends after that
because of some reasons we knew but we couldn't explain. It's simple, nothing much
but I liked that she was so friendly, funny and very talkative.. but life goes on and
I've got too much friends anyway, so it's ok not to see her ever again, but also
sad that I couldn't see her dog anymore. If you'll ever read this please know that
I didn't believe in your funny texts when I asked for your dog's instagram, dammit,
I just wanna see him again, but yeah, there are another cute dogs in Sweden anyway
so well, hope he's doing fine.
And also, I had a good times hanging out with a coolest friends, one of them I met
in Bangkok when she was visiting her family in Thailand. She's half Thai/Swedish
I liked her a lot because she's just so cool and so nice to me, sad that I had to go
back to Thailand and we couldn't hang out for a long time. Hope to see you again soon!
I love Sweden, it's such a weird feelings. I don't really know much about them
but I know a lot in some ways. I decided to take a test and apply a scholarship
and a university there for the masters. I don't know what's gonna be, but if not
study, what else I can do there? I just wanna try living there for a bit, maybe a year
maybe a 2 years, maybe more..
Because I never felt like this before, I don't know why Sweden. And what I love
the most is Stockholm, so cool, so rush, so nice and so fierce. Maybe someday,
But I'll always come back every year...
Du följer med mig...
I love you, life
H e l l o o oooo...
Heya, just wanted to be sure that I won't leave my blog alone
even if I'm focusing on a lot of projects including somewhere else,
I also write on https://minimore.com/author/mayajett there are some of
my thoughts in [Thai] language. I just want to be sure to spread
my works and let people read, see some of my thoughts. I am also
working on another drawing and writing and crafting projects,
a lot to do in a not so much time. Last week I wrote about 'life and death'
mostly focused on death, also got inspired by some amazing people
and some grieving memories. It turned out that people loved it very much,
that makes me want to write more and more, but right now I don't know
how to do with this blog which supposed to be my main blog and website
in the future. Still posting random music and thoughts. Once I figure things
out I will make it better, I don't know who's reading my blog now since
I tried to make it an English version when all my friends are Thai.
But I'll just do. Do what I want and is good.
I'm going to Sweden soon, very excited to visit
my favorite place again, I hope things will wait for me too..
I will meet a lot of nice people, and especially one...
you'll hear about it all, here
keep in touch if you care lol
Photo from Some Die Young Music Video - Laleh
August 20, 2016
to all the stars tonight, every night..